Title-If I Fall
By-Anna Cruise
Publication Date- April 6, 2013
Published by-Mission Bay Publishing
Genre- Young Adult
Meg Calloway is at the edge.
Reeling from her parents' sudden divorce, fifteen-year old Meg has never felt more alone. Her father is about to marry a woman she can't stand and her mother's only companion is an endless supply of alcohol. When Aidan Westwood, an older boy at school, shows interest in her, she grabs on and doesn't let go, thinking he's exactly what she needs to help stem her loneliness and despair. She quickly learns that Aidan lives a darker, more dangerous life than she does and the more isolated she feels from her family, the more willing she is to step into Aidan's world.
As Meg drifts further from her friends, she tries to find comfort with a boy who is opening her eyes up to new things, none of them good. Will she listen to those around her who are warning her that she's headed down a path of self-destruction?
Or will she fall too far...too fast...too deep?
Megan never felt more alone and vulnerable when her parents filed for divorce, and her dad suddenly marries the real estate agent. Her mom was no longer herself, often drowns herself in alcohol, and Meg was left to fend for herself. So when the handsome and popular Aidan comes into her little world and charmed her, she was hooked.
He made her feel like she was the most important thing in the world. One by one she started ditching her friends, her class, her life. She knew it was wrong, but she couldn't seem to stop because Aidan makes her forget, her makes her feel alive. She will do anything to be with him, even if it means lying to everyone who cares for her.
Another book from Anna Cruise that I have read in one sitting, and this time, it was all about a girl who was lost after her family broke apart. I don't blame her, she was young, vulnerable and well, gullible. Her parents (figuratively) ditched her, and when someone makes you feel like a princess after feeling like crap - you hold on to that person even if it means he's your ride to self destruction. She's lucky that she has her aunt who was firm enough to lay grounds, a step mother who doesn't push herself in her life, and friends who really cares for her.
Aidan was charming, manipulative and an ass. I hated him since the night he got her drunk and took advantage of her. He treated her like she was a piece of meat, took her innocence in the most carnal and selfish way and gave her some crap to forget her problems.
I wished her friends were stronger in trying to make her see what Aidan really is, how wrong he is for her. But her conviction was strong, I couldn't blame her friends if they just stood in the sidelines, watching her waste her life. Yet, the moment she needed them, they were there, ready to lend a hand and bail her out. Especially Case, I love him! He's an amazing kid with a good head on his shoulders than his pants. He's responsible, and never judged her. He listened to her, picks her up when she calls him, and silently waited for her until can finally come into her senses and see reality.
If I Fall is a fantastic read. I love the plot, the pacing, the characters in it (except for Aidan obviously). This was a story about a girl's journey - her ups and downs, how her life turned into an almost-nightmare but was saved right in time by people who cared about her the most. Sometimes when you thought you have lost everything, think again, look around, because there are still people who gives a shit about you, and would do anything for you to be on that right path again.
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“All I'm saying is I think you deserve better,” Case said. “From my point of view, anyway. You deserve better.”
I threw my head back on the sofa and laughed. It was a harsh laugh with no mirth. “Most of the time, I don't think I deserve better.”
“Everyone deserves better.”
“Not me.” I didn't look at him. “No one else would want me. I've royally fucked up. Everything. There isn't anything better out there. Anything or anyone.”
“Yeah, there is.”
“Oh, really?” I brought my eyes back to him. “And where exactly would I find better?”
It was quiet for a moment. Then he said,“Well, you might start with me.”
My eyes widened. “With you?”
His cheeks flushed just a bit. “You don't have to sound so surprised.”
I immediately felt bad. “That's not what I meant. Sorry.”
He laughed. “It's fine. I'm kidding. About you being surprised. Not about being better.”
“Well how would I know you were better?” I said. “It's not like you've ever asked me out.”
He thought about this for a minute. “So if I asked you out, you'd go?”
I honestly had no idea where the conversation was headed. He was confusing me like crazy and I wasn't sure what to say to him. I thought maybe he was just screwing around with me.
“Yeah, I would,” I said, calling his bluff.
“What about Aidan?” he asked.
“What about him?” I said, shrugging. “You just pointed out all the reasons I shouldn't be with him. Maybe you're right and I've just been too dumb to see it.”
I didn't know if I believed what I was saying but it felt like the truth was on the wall, some message that everyone had deciphered but me. And I was going to try my hardest to translate it, however I could.
He stared at me for a long time. I didn't say anything, just stared into those eyes that were always friendly, always honest.
I threw my head back on the sofa and laughed. It was a harsh laugh with no mirth. “Most of the time, I don't think I deserve better.”
“Everyone deserves better.”
“Not me.” I didn't look at him. “No one else would want me. I've royally fucked up. Everything. There isn't anything better out there. Anything or anyone.”
“Yeah, there is.”
“Oh, really?” I brought my eyes back to him. “And where exactly would I find better?”
It was quiet for a moment. Then he said,“Well, you might start with me.”
My eyes widened. “With you?”
His cheeks flushed just a bit. “You don't have to sound so surprised.”
I immediately felt bad. “That's not what I meant. Sorry.”
He laughed. “It's fine. I'm kidding. About you being surprised. Not about being better.”
“Well how would I know you were better?” I said. “It's not like you've ever asked me out.”
He thought about this for a minute. “So if I asked you out, you'd go?”
I honestly had no idea where the conversation was headed. He was confusing me like crazy and I wasn't sure what to say to him. I thought maybe he was just screwing around with me.
“Yeah, I would,” I said, calling his bluff.
“What about Aidan?” he asked.
“What about him?” I said, shrugging. “You just pointed out all the reasons I shouldn't be with him. Maybe you're right and I've just been too dumb to see it.”
I didn't know if I believed what I was saying but it felt like the truth was on the wall, some message that everyone had deciphered but me. And I was going to try my hardest to translate it, however I could.
He stared at me for a long time. I didn't say anything, just stared into those eyes that were always friendly, always honest.
Anna Cruise has been writing -- and drooling over boys -- since middle school. Lots of years have passed but some things never change...
Her books include the best-seller IT WAS YOU (New Adult), IF I FALL (Mature YA) and MAVERICK (New Adult). Additional titles releasing in 2013 will include a follow-up to Abby and West's story from IT WAS YOU.
Anna loves to hear from readers and authors. Email her at authorannacruise@gmail.com. You can also like her Facebook page, find her on Twitter @AnnaCruiseBooks or friend her on Goodreads.
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